What most helps your personal growth?

you do not have to believe me, Jeff.  i sometimes see the future.  i know exactly what this means.

i don't like it when that happens.  when i see things that haven't happened yet.  it really sucks.  but i'm not staying quiet this time.

when i do that, see things like that, they are possibilities.  we have free will, even if so many of us opt not to use it.  one decision by one person can change all of history.  in the future i've seen, we have it easy here in Tennessee compared to many other places….

and of all the different possible futures i've seen, the one we are in now is the good one, the one i wanted to experience.  beats hell out of a militaristic police state (not even a possibliity anymore, but i don't know why not) or armageddon (which is still possible, perhaps this future will be perceived by many to be just that).

i almost didn't answer this question.  what most helps your personal growth?  indeed.  every day i learn something new.  that is the only reason worth living.  for the chance to learn something new.  yeah, so, usuallly those lessons are learned the hard way, by making mistakes.  that's just part of it.  so long's i live to see tomorrow's lessons unfurl.  that's what it's all about.

you want to experience perfection?  you want to be always right?  go ahead and die, then, because you're missing the whole point of living.  the whole point of living is to live!!  not to strive for “personal growth” or to “evolve” or to reach some imaginary “enlightenment” ….  those things only reflect a divided way of thinking about humanity.  and the liars are right sometimes, we really are one, it's just what they say about that is all wrong, it's built around control issues that stem from the lies they have been led to believe are true, because they are afraid to find the truth inside themselves.

so go ahead, you and your herd mentality, pretending you aren't sheep.  baaaaaa
i found truth, and it's not always pretty.  but one thing about it is the lies never really hurts what is true, they only hurt those who believe them to be true.

i am so fed up with your political “debates” which are anything but a debate.  and your fucking phone calls telling me who i should vote for…  and your obama parties, raising money for some rich dude born, bred, and groomed to rule over your pathetic lives of servitude.  stupid stupid shits.  there won't be an election, and you know it.  you've known it a long time, but you would rather pretend the lies are true.  but you know it.  you do.  i know you do.

whether the disasters are man-made or natural, it doesn't matter.  there will be big disasters, postpone the election.  maybe just cancel the inauguration, whatever.  and after BushCo reduces the population according to Plan, then in steps new puppet with new lies and prettier words to save us all!!  and the stupid sheep will be too shell-shocked, too traumatized to question any of it, they will eat it up, gorge themselves on the lies that sedate the masses.  and they will call it a “revolution,” and nothing will change.  same as it ever was. 

but it doesn't have to happen that way.  all those people don't have to die.  really.  but it sure looks to me like they'd rather.  you would rather be getting virtual blowjobs on the internet than talking about anything that really matters.  stupid.  i am so fed up with this shit….  who gives a damn?  who really cares?  all you care about is your newest get-rich-quick scheme, how to fuck over your neighbor and have a newer shinier car in your driveway, and buy your wife bigger boobs.  fuck you, all you shits.  i hate your capitalism and your consumerism, and especially i hate how you deny reality while you talk about “awakening” …and how you most adore those who abuse you the most.

yes, i'll say it again.  this IS the good future.  and you can deny it all you want, but there's some bad shit gonna go down, and real soon, too…  weave your pretty illusions made of lies.  go on.  think only good thoughts.  trust in someone else, your guru, your jesus, your favorite candidate.  are you really so gullible as to think they have your best interest in mind?  they'll tell you themselves, it's all about the good of the group, the “greater good” they like to call it.  individuals, like you and me, we don't count for shit.  none of us do.  you'd rather think it's just the fringe elements, the freaks, the misfits, who will be hurt.  but you're wrong.  because they don't care about you, either.  you are nothing more than a number in their machine, same as the money that rules your life.  in one instant, it can all go *poof*  ….  and what would be left of you, if the money were gone?  if you had no job, no title, no status, who would you be?

it's nothing at all


*grins*

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and this is highly relevant to the discussion, i do believe…

According to these reports the American Generals have stated their ‘firm belief’ that the United States and Europe are under an ‘imminent threat’ for large scale attacks by nuclear weapons prior to the US elections, due to be held on November 4th, that will completely destroy both America and the European Union in a bid to establish upon both these Nations a new ‘Forth Reich’ modeled upon the former German Nazi Empire.

Russian Military Analysts state in these reports that the fascist forces currently in power in both the United States and European Union already have in place all of the necessary laws and private paramilitary forces needed to accomplish such an astounding coup of virtually the entire Western World.

i'm not afraid of their stupid games.  that's all it is, a game to them.  our lives are meaningless, we are just numbers in their game.  but to deny the truth of the matter, bury your head in the sand, or worse, sing the praises of some politician who tells you prettier lies….  well, that's just stupid.

maybe LOVE doesn't mean sitting idly by while the government kills millions of innocent people (and thinking it's not your problem, this time the war is your problem and it's coming to your own backyard). 

maybe LOVE doesn't mean putting up with a corrupt system, so long as you aren't the one being oppressed by it. 

maybe LOVE really does mean standing up, alone if that's what it takes, and screaming at the top of your lungs, “this shit sucks, y'all!”

because nothing sucks worse than someone who sees another human being tortured, tormented, oppressed, and abused, and then turns their back.  and they spout all that crap about love, it sounds real good, don't it?  but what the fuck are they doing to show anyone love?  sending imaginary white light ain't cutting it, y'all.  if you love somebody, what you say don't mean shit, it's what you do that counts.

maybe LOVE means that we are all connected.  maybe LOVE means that I feel others' pain, and don't want them to hurt anymore.  and nothing hurts worse than the mind-control that prevents us from connecting with everyone else, because that's what happens when you realize who you really are, you feel that connection, and you can call it oneness, but i don't see it that way.  maybe LOVE is many things, all lumped together and called by one same name by humans who have no clue what it's all about.

i'll tell you this.  i know what love is, it calls me by my name.  and love tells me who i am, who i really am, why i am here.  i am not here to play idiotic games and pretend the world is fine when it's not.  i am not here to suffer as millions of lives are snuffed out in the name of world domination and control.  because when those people die, i will feel their pain.  and maybe it's just selfishness, i don't want them to hurt because it hurts me.  or maybe it's something else.  love, perhaps.

no, jeff, it doesn't.  it feels to me that you are trying to invalidate my feelings.  and my feelings are valid, and do not need to be suppressed because it might make others uncomfortable because what's really going on is they are uncomfortable with their own feelings, they have been told it is wrong to feel strong emotions of any sort, they have been told you should play nice, they have been told that their Truth hurts other people, and that's wrong…  my truth only hurts those who would rather believe the lies.  because if they'd only find their own truth, they would realize that my truth doesn't have to be true for them, that the only truth that matters is that which you find inside yourself. 

but they don't want to hear about the truth i found inside myself.  because my truth says they have to find their own.  and they don't want to do that.  they want someone else to give them truth so they don't have to do all the hard work of healing themselves.  but i know it doesn't work that way.

thanks, Jeff!
the more the merrier!

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dance with me!! 
i got some things to talk about… 

to clear up any confusion, the dialogue isn't between myself and my dear friend, Jeff.  it's a monologue…  between me and the imaginary “herd” …  all those people, and you can include yourself, or not, who believe the lies, who think there is strength in numbers, who willingly give up their power to make their own decisions over to some external authority rather than finding their own authority, within.

and in order to make sense of any of this what i'm talking about, you gotta read my other shit.  and i can't ask anyone to do that.

but anyway, glad you are enjoying my keyboard sputum…  it can be fun sometimes, for those who recognize that i don't expect anyone to agree with my opinion, i only expect you to have one of your own!!  ;-)

see, i'm not talking about blame.  blame is part of the problem!!!
what i'm talking about is personal responsiblity instead.  getting rid of the blame, which only serves to create a fear of being blamed by others.  it is shame, the fear of being “to blame” that controls the masses.

and how did the blame start?  plato explained it well in The Republic just how that works.  and it still works today, 2400 years later.  we must first invent this notion of evil that we can blame when bad things happen, divide all-that-is into two parts, good and evil.  the division itself is a lie, but one that is not allowed to be questioned.

where's that poem i wrote….  ??

the original lie is in the division of all-that-is into good and evil.
with this division, blame is created.
with the blame, fear is created.
with the fear, the people are effectively controlled.


here's some stuff i wrote last  year on this subject…

oh Lars, so glad you finally came out to play!!  you know this is more my style, though….  giggle

yeah, i guess you could say that, Rich.  hmmm….  yeah.  i think so.  knowledge, not through “education” (which comes from others sharing their understanding with you) but through the experience itself.  that works for me! 

wow.

thanks!