ooooh, do i get a wish?  just one?!  very cool!



i want the wars to stop.  i want there to be world peace.  not a pretend peace, not the illusion of peace created by a one-world government that is at war with all of humanity.  nor the illusion of peace consisting of a one-world religion that is also at war with all of humanity.  but the kind of peace that can only happen when each and every individual on earth is free to be who they want to be, to do what they want to do, to make their own decisions for themselves.  the kind of peace that will happen when each individual human being has the courage to look within and find what is true, rather than looking to any leaders to guide them, any rulers to make laws which prevent us from finding our own truth, our own ability to know the difference between right and wrong.  we all have it within us, human instinct.  i am definitely not talking about social darwinism, which would have us believe that it is our nature to compete against each other.  human instinct, the humanity inside us that has been taken away from us by those abusive authorities such as church and state, with all their rules and laws, telling us who we should be and how we should act, telling us what is good, telling us that we are inherently bad and unable or unqualified to make decisions for ourselves.  so that's my wish.  can i have it now?

"until death do us part"

...i finally decided it was probably better to break my word than to have to kill him.


ps - no, the next time around, that was not part of the vows.

pps - i changed the title to more accurately express the question i felt was being asked.  it is not very difficult at all to make promises, it's the breaking them that hurts.

i do not believe in good versus evil.
i do not believe that good exists, other than as a
subjective judgment i make about certain things.
when i perceive something as hurtful to me or anyone else,
i may call it bad.  but that doesn't mean that bad (or good)
is an objective quality in any of those things.

"Do you believe in karma? Does goodness beget more goodness? Or do terrible things sometimes befall innocent people?"

i do believe that every decision we make
has the potential to change our lives, our world,
and everything in it.
i do believe that it is our choice,
not fate, not destiny,
that determines what happens next.

it has been my personal experience
that when others decide for me
is when i have perceived myself as being hurt.
or rather, i perceive myself to be suffering.

yes, i make mistakes.  we all do.
but to not decide when the choice is mine to make
is the worst of all mistakes i have ever made.

when there's no dirty dishes in the sink, nor piles of dirty laundry needing to be washed.

lower estrogen levels

what shelter?

a vacation.   a warm tropical island would be nice.


(lyrics)

my youngest child.  she is so much like me, that she becomes offended when i assume that i understand what she's feeling or thinking, when i tell her how much she is like me.   i agree with her, there is not much more offensive than someone thinking you are like them, that you think what they think, or feel what they feel, or that you have experienced similar things in life.  this kind of false "understanding" often leads to a condescending attitude, not only do they think they know where i am right now, but where i should go next.  but they are wrong.  you are all wrong.  nobody is like me.  nobody  is like you, either.  we are all of us unique and different.  and that's not a bad thing, as the groupthink mentality of our society would have us want to be same.  unity does not mean everyone should be the same.  a world without divisions, without the groups that separate us from others, would mean that it would be okay to be different.  that is real connectedness.  not wanting to change anyone, not wanting someone to be like you, but to accept that they are different.

the right words

running with it

to be free.

a place where there are no walls,
no boundaries,
no fences.
and certainly no pearly gates
that serve to keep "sinners" out.

a place without the concept of sin,
thus without any blame or shame.

a place where there are no stereotypes,
nor groups fighting against each other.
a place where war does not exist.

a place without hatred of those who are different.
a place where each spirit is celebrated
not for sameness, but for their differences.

a place we are all truly equal, and connected
through our caring for each other,
not the illusion of connection
created by homogenizing humanity
or unifying everyone into the same mould,
assimilating everyone into the hive,
and killing off those who won't conform.
a place without genocide.

a place where i can be me.
a place where you aren't afraid
to be who you really are.

prayer is how i express my personal relationship with the divine.  as such, it is a very private matter and not something i share with other people.  all i ask is the same consideration in return.  seems too many are unaware that there exists a spiritual personal space, just as there exist boundaries in our physical interactions with others.  it is never nice to be made to feel as though someone has no respect for what, to me, is the most personal, most private part of who i am.

i don't know.  not sure if "happy" is something you can quantify.

that would be the question i've been asked more than any other:

"what the [expletive] is your problem?"

patience.  spring will get here in it's own sweet time.
no sense in trying to hurry it up or worrying that it won't arrive.

speaking out.  every voice matters.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KM6o1Hv7ec0

i don't make wishes. 
wishing implies doubt.
"it's just a dream"
well, not my dreams.
my dreams are true.
it's just some of them haven't happened yet.

i will not invalidate those dreams by hoping they might all come true tomorrow.  they will happen when they happen, and not a minute too soon.  so for tomorrow, if i were to wish, i would wish that i survive it, to live to see the day those dreams are real.

i shared some thoughts with my husband.

i thought what if they took all that money, resources and human labor that is being spent building that wall between us and mexico, what if they took all that and used it to feed people instead?  seems it would accomplish the same end, except without hurting anyone.

then i thought, what if they took all that money, resources and human labor that is being spent on war and used it to help people instead of killing them...

trying to think of an answer to this question that would not offend...

LOL