the patience to see me through.  my dreams don't come with an expiration date.  they might not come true today, but that's okay.  that doesn't mean it won't ever happen.  i'll not invalidate what i want by wanting it now, or expecting it today.  dreams don't work that way.  if they did, they'd be wishes instead.

a perfect day?  oh, to spend it with you.


what makes a day perfect is being open to and aware of the perfection that every day is.  trying to change things outside my control, wishing for something different than what the universe has offered, that ruins everything.

i don't often buy things for myself.  not since i quit working for pay some eight years ago, anyway.  i start to feel guilty when i want to spend money on superfluous nonsense, things i don't really need.  but i did today.  not only did i spend a little money on myself, i'm blogging about it!  hahahaha  why?  i dunno.  just excited about my present that i got for me, i suppose.  guess what i got?  i got some artist's sketch books, and some charcoals and fancy graphite pencils, and one of those little wooden poseable mannequins.  it's been a really long time since i was into drawing, like, on paper.  this will be fun!




(and you might ask why did i put "patience" in the tags?  because art requires lots of it.  it will likely take quite some time to produce anything as good as what i was drawing the last time i drew with charcoals, back in high school.  patience.  and practice.  that's all it takes, you know.  for anything worth doing is worth doing well.)

i also got a whole bunch of ribbons and lace.  that's why i went to the hobby store in the first place.  i'm going to make some frilly frou-frou things.  you know, once i get the sewing machine out from under that pile of stuff that need repairs... hahahaha  hey, at least i got my computer desk cleaned off (almost).  *giggles*

"safe" is a word for fearful people to cling to. 
it's a substitute for freedom.  i don't need it.

thanks.

here's something i originally posted at infolib:
(am copy and pasting only my own words, please visit the site for the rest of the conversation)

mind-control is abusive behavior. whether the propaganda uses lies or truth against humanity matters not, when it's all abusive, when the purpose is to deny people freedom to make their own decisions for themselves. repeated abuses are addictive. we crave that which hurts us most, and so long as we think it feels good, we think we like it, the abuse continues.

healing is happening, i think everyone feels it on some level or another. but you can't make an addict stop abusing, they have to want it to stop. you can't help them if they don't want your help. to force healing upon them would simply be more abuse, piled up on top of a lifetime of abuse. it don't work that way.

"if you really love someone" is a powerfully abusive phrase right there. love, like all feelings, is subjective. to objectively define love for anyone but yourself, is also abusive behavior. passive-aggressive abuse deals the same cards as violent aggression, it's all part of the system of abuse that we call "civilization". freedom is to be found in breaking the chains that bind us. it will never be achieved through forming a new organization based upon the same heirarchical system of control as the old one.

"What I did not understand was why time and again, after fighting your way out of a swamp, you sank into a worse one."
- http://www.listenlittleman.com/

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dave said:
"...what people are falsely told is public opinion is used to create groupthink, it isn't real but it helps keep people in denial of the truth."

denial is what perpetuates the abuse. so long as people deny that they have been sorely abused, they can continue to play the blame game and don't have to take responsibility for making it stop.

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hypnosis and propaganda work in the same way, to control the minds of the masses. how it works is they tell you things you already believe to be true, tell you that you agree with these things, which you do. then they tell you other things and tell you that you agree with them too.

it works subconsciously and most people don't even notice it. the use of truth turns off your internal bullshit meter (if you let it, if you respond to the use of emotional triggers, as we have all been trained to do. but if you know it's happening, you can make it stop.), and you let the other crap through, and accept the lies as truth.

there is a precise mathematical formula for how much truth is needed to support the lies. the bigger the lies are, the more truth must be exposed in order to get anyone to believe the lies. all the truth coming out now is because the lies got too big and started to collapse under their own weight.

i have no mentor. i never had one. i learn. i do not follow. i do not lead. i do not believe in playing such control games with people's heads. i'd much rather leave each person to do their own thinking. i believe they can. i know they can. i also believe they do not know it themselves, or they wouldn't be looking to leaders for answers they already have, they would not allow authority to make their decisions, if they knew they could do it themselves.

fear keeps the population under control, just like plato said. what i learned most from this site was to look at my fears and ask myself where did that idea come from? was it given to me? did i learn it through experience? why should i be afraid? and the only answer i found was that fear is the only weapon they have against us. our own fears. this is what allows us to be controlled. this is what makes us look to leaders for guidance and gurus for wisdom. this is what prevents us from being free.

some links that might be helpful to others, like me, who are constantly hearing people say things like, "you are far too sensitive"

http://www.sensory-processing-disorder.com/sensory-defensiveness.html
 ^^ this one is good, but does not address the role food plays.

http://67.80.203.99:98/sensorydefensiveness.net/
interesting, but only glanced through because i don't like the design (over-stimulating)

http://www.temple.edu/temple_times/9-23-04/senses.html
this one says we don't grow out of it.  is true.  but we can heal, for me it started with changing my diet.  i cannot stress how much that made a difference in my world, in my attitude, and in my behavior, not to mention my children, who appear to have inherited this overly-sensitive constitution from mama.

those were found with a very quick google search.  there is tons of info out there now, there wasn't so much available when i first started addressing these issues.  about the only thing i could find back then was a book titled "Too Loud, Too Bright, Too Fast, Too Tight"  it's a really good one, helped us a lot.  but nothing helped more than eliminating wheat and gluten from our diet.

as for the original question, yes, it's all related.  being overly sensitive is not limited to the "five senses"

forgiveness depends upon blame.  i don't do blame.

i worry about the globalists' plans for world domination.  but i'm not letting it go.  i'm certainly not forgiving them their abuses against all of humanity.  you want to tell me i should just get over it, that there's nothing i can do about it.  but you're wrong.  there's plenty to worry about when a war is being waged against all of us.  denial won't make it go away.

where are the veterans of war?  why are you not talking about what you experienced, so that we might know what war is really about?  why do your voices remain silent?  how will that help?  if we don't talk about the past, if we refuse to learn the lessons, we will continue to repeat the same mistakes over and over again.  we don't have to let the war continue.  we can make it stop.  open someone's eyes today.  tell them something they didn't know or were afraid to think about.  what are you so afraid of?

a few years ago, when i started blogging about conspiracy stuff, my husband grew fearful, worried the government would come and get me.  well, that never happened.  sure, they censored me, deleted my comments, they sent their trolls to try to derail my conversations at various message boards, and sometimes even in the comments of my own blogs, but that didn't hurt me any.  actually, their antics only proved the conspiracy was real.  but i'm no threat to anyone.  i live here in tennessee with my husband, two kids, and a dog, we're not bothering anyone.  were the army to come marching up my street to forcibly remove me from my home, then people might have to start looking at my words a little more closely, to see where the perceived threat could be found.  the bad guys aren't gonna get you for speaking your mind. 

that is where freedom starts, in the mind.  your fears prevent you from saying what you really think, this reinforces the groupthink mentality that is presented as public opinion.  it's all bullshit.  what you think everyone else thinks has been fed to you through mass media and marketing (propaganda).  it's everywhere, the lie is.  but you do have truth within you.  if you are afraid to share your truth with others, you only help perpetuate the lie.

same old, same old

there's no telling.  let's find out, shall we? 

some folks might say i'm a little off all the time... 
hahahaha 

(they'd be right.)

lyrics

i'd rather just die than have to pick only fifteen minutes of each day in which to do my thinking.  i honestly don't know how to make it stop.  i tried.  i tried real hard to be what society told me i should be, but it just didn't work. 

with an F and a U

to play in the rain and the mud. 
icecream for breakfast.
pony rides.
going to art museums.
the companionship of animals.
putting their feet in the ocean.

of course not.  the name on the birth certificate is not me.  it's a legal entity, but not a fleshandblood human person.  http://mhkeehn.tripod.com/TradeNameBinder.pdf

If you could plan your ideal vacation--of any length, to anywhere in the world, with any activities involved--what would it include?

my dream vacation would not be planned, there would be no schedules to meet, no clocks or watches keeping time.  it would include lots of sex.



Where would you go?

to the ocean.



With whom?

now that is the tough part. 
i don't get to make other people's decisions for them.
it would have to be up to them to decide if they want to go with me.

the conversations i enjoy most are with people who think for themselves.  this means we don't always agree.  i enjoy most speaking with people unafraid to say what they really feel about things, even if it's not always nice.  i don't enjoy talking with people who blindly agree with what i'm saying, or who offer flattering remarks that they don't really mean just because social custom dictates that they do.

nope.  not at all.

nobody i can think of off the top of my head.  if Xena, warrior princess, and Bob Dylan had a lovechild....  that might do it.

yes.  they are very much real, even if most people have built a wall inside their heads to shut them out.  believing in them was not a choice.  i have experienced their presence.  such experiences are self-validating.  it doesn't matter what anyone else says or thinks about it.  it really happened to me, and i cannot deny it.